Sorry for this irrelevant question; I just thought knowing point of views of people doing bioinformatics could light my mind about the frustrating situation I am nowadays.
I am a PhD graduate in molecular genetics that based on our weird educational system I don't have any wet lab expertise even working with PCR machine. In my PhD I analysed RNA-seq, ribo-seq, miRNA-RNA-seq, exom-seq and microarrays mainly by R, linux and a bit matlab. So, I know how to use tools from installation to obtain results in transcriptomics. But, I don't know matching learning, a deep statistics, math, and well programming. I published many papers on very low impact journals let's say just indexed by Scopus and Thomson router journal with maximum impact 1. So, shortly after my PhD I obtained postdoc as a computational biologist in a university with world rank 17 in molecular biology. Firstly, I was thinking how lucky I am because I studied in very very very low ranked universities in middle east. But, now I am just feeling I am not lucky rather I am a useless person with low intelligence that her overestimated CV by publishing some useless things in data analysis obtained this position. Unfortunately the biological system I am working on, is not compatible with current algorithms in tracing cell states so likely I must develop my own method for analysing this data. This is very unlikely that this current boss extend my contract (even I don't want to be extended as I am just feeling rubbish about myself ). Once my boss told me my ability on analysing data is out of questioning however I am not independent thinker and my CV is an overestimation of my abilities :( :( :(. I don't know , might be my way of describing myself in Skype interviews with him deceived him; if so I am so sorry... If one of you were in my situation, what would you do? resigning and trying to a lower rank university? or?
I am working 15 hours 7 days but this would not compensate the competence I expected to have when I joined this lab
EDIT: I am likely not telling lie in my CV; However I am saying 3 years working experience in R while I just know how to use R for data analysis not coding anything new in R :(
I am listing 14 papers in which I am the first and correspondence author; I know employer would not check in which journals I have published :(
In brief, I am not this much to be deserved this position; the only option would be working hard and hard and move to somewhere with easiest duties :(**
EDIT: You right @h.mon, that demands to wait for the end of my contract to see what would be the decision of my boss in extending my contract (my contract is 1 year will terminated this February), but this is very risky as I am a visa holder in UK from a very poor country and in case my boss just in January decides I am not fit for this lab, I don't have enough time to find a job before leaving the country (I am aware if I back to my home country this is very unlikely I would find any job in bioinformatics overseas, as I mentioned that is all a miracle that I am here because I am not this much). So, I told my boss I am feeling needless and useless here, how likely you would extend my contract? He told he does not know yet as I started just 5 months ago and although I am a quick and good data analysis I am not independent and my CV is overrepresentation of me :( These words feared me a lot (I am aware he is right and fair). So, I decided to leave before he asks me to leave :( I have found another job in very very lower rank university in UK, the probation period for that is 1 year, and I could to try my best to pass my probation period as the contract is 3 years :(
This is a really sad story for whom leaving her position in such a well known lab voluntarily just because I am feeling incompetent
When I told my boss that I am leaving he got angry at me but as @Devon suggested I want to try my chance in establishing a new algorithm before my start date with new employer